2024-07-15
New vocab
ESL: English as a second language.
reincarnate
One call told me that he wants to reincarnate Hitler lol
Preposition: 전치사
I want to be more emotionally stable and competent so that I don't need to be clingy and help people when they need me. During my undergraduate years, (I think) I'd always needed help to do anything even sending an email, or finishing an assignment. There was one point that I'd got so used to it and I just asked for help for anything. I made friends based on what they could (can) offer me, I always was a needy greedy girlfriend who constantly contacted (always contact) my boyfriend on everything (anything) whether for emotional support or homework (even as emotional support or homework). I didn't see(take) them as ends(the end) but more so like used them as means (a mean). Now I know how immature I was. (I mean) as an international student, as a person who speaks English as a second language, I know that I much help and have to work harder to achieve as much as other students do(I need to do as much as other students do). I know. But I think it's time to stand up by myself and learn how to be competent without wanting anyone's help (as I am not wanting anyone's help).
I don't want to use being ESL student as an excuse for (on) everything. I want to be professional. I want people to be (get) amazed by my ability to be (being) an independent researcher, not just an international student who is shy and works hard. Working hard is a baseline. I think I need more than that. I mean I want more than that.
BTW - I've started running since I moved to SF. I go on a run for an hour every day. It's still hard to run uphills (when I go up hills) but every time I reach (get to the time of)the hills, I realize how much I've accomplished in this foreign country. I've gotten so much help from everyone that I know including my family, my friends, and my mentors. But foremost, I'm thankful for myself who has not given up on this journey, fighting all the loneliness and self-doubt.
